Changing one's mind

2009-10-07T21:47:00.006+08:00

My fight is your fight.

- We organised a class chalet so we could get together again before our final attachment. I wouldn't say everything went as planned, to be honest alot were just screwed up. But it was beneficial to our clique, it really tested our friendship and bond we had living together.
Even so, let's just remember the happy moments now shall we :)
I'm just going to let you run through the pictures, there isn't much to say besides the fact that Isabella,Sheril,Roshan,Muhaimin and myself had a great time as a clique.
Special thanks to Hing Lun! you're so nice and bloody sweet!
If I didn't have a boyfriend or if you weren't such a good friend, I would marry you!
:D

That's about it that I wanna say, I'll have videos uploaded in Facebook .. So check it out if you're in my contacts, if you're not.. please add me. If you don't have facebook? ' where do you live? under a rock! '

Ok anyways.. anyways! Come to my very exciting part!
Chester disappeared to another country and it was our 7th month anniversary last month on the 23rd. These are overdued. ok anyways! he got me some really nice things when he was in Italy, he got them in a rush but still something!
And I forgive you a LITTLE bit :)

He had to send them down to his place due to some customs check thing.

And then I open it up!
and VOOO-LAAAA

A MOMENT TO BE EXCITED PLEASE?!

It contained,
lotions:

Lip colour:

A mascara from M.A.C:

And some Nail colour:

AREN'T THEY ALL SO PRETTY?!?!?!
Yes I was smiling all the way.
Awwwwwwww, thanks babe for being so sweet :D

~

Oh, before I end a very quick shout out to this feller here..

I nearly fell off my chair when he called me. Like I haven't heard from him in like what.. 6 months?!
Anyways, it was good to do a brief catching up again. It has been long :)

Oh! and I'm having a bad cold now, I sound husky and sexy now. LOL

Love,peace and chicken grease <3>

2009-10-03T02:30:00.003+08:00

Happy-ness

I went shopping today,and I must say that I am very sa-tis-fied.
Yes, satisfied.
I went NUTS when I saw the ever so wonderful M.A.C store

They have a new range of cosmetics coming out, and I've already registered with them and I can't wait for what else is in store! So obviously I didn't get anymore eyeshadow, I have every colour possible. Then again the black/purple glitter pigment M.A.C had on display was rather attractive, wonder why I didn't get that? Anyways! They featured the new 'Dazzle-Gloss' series and trust me, when I say gorgeous.. I mean GOR-GEOUS. It came in the most attractive baby-pink I have ever seen and the moment I saw it, I had to have it!

Looks good,feels good and even smells like vanilla!
What more could you ask for?! ooooohhh, isn't it just so pretty? :)

Okay now, let me show you the few purchases I made from Anna Sui.

I know... Anna Sui is nothing new.. you can find it almost everywhere on this island... it was so last year.... blah blah blah
It recently just launched it's new series of lipstick/blush/eyeshadow and loose powder!
I got myself a very pretty nude brown base pink lipstick from the new series, even the outside looks so good! [ the box of the new edition lip stick is the one far right on the above picture ]

Isn't it just so pretty?
sorry, pardon the blue nails. lol

Oh! and I also got another pink shade lip stick.

Why do they have to make things look so pretty and smell so good?!??!
yes! the lip stick, mascara and everything from Anna Sui smells like roses.

I am NOT kidding, this mascara right here. SMELLS like roses.
I know you must be thinking I'm probably high on crack to think some black mascara smells good and not the normal ' chemical ' like ink or whatever disgusting smell.
Trust me, it smells like roses and I haven't been drinking either.

And I think if you exceed your purchase of $150 from Anna Sui they throw in a few free stuff as well, one of the most 'retarded' things they threw in apart from a purple cushion that has ANNA SUI printed on it

Was a small ' carry along ' mascara.
I mean mascaras generally come in a reasonable size, unless you somehow purchase a super ultra mega muti function one that gives you volume,length,enlargement in eyes,separates lashes and also is water proof,smudge proof,fungi proof,people proof,aliens proof and mother proof. There might be a possibility of having the mascara tube the size of a dildo, other than that.. they all should be travel friendly or easy to carry along.
So I find it redundant for them to give me a smaller one to make it 'easier', it in fact makes it so much harder to apply the freaking mascara on my lashes [ which again I emphasize, it smells like roses.. ahhhh ] because the brush is so damn short! Well I'm sorry if I have a wide set of eyes, I was born with a good set of pupils just waiting for mascara to enhance them prettier! But television ruined it, and now I'm sentence to life on glasses or laser treatment where my age has a larger digit indicated.

Now look! it's so damn small!
I would be tossing this out the window cause I won't use it, I find it ridiculous.
But I can't bare to, why?
it smells like roses... :))

So before I left the stores, before I made my way back home after a day of shopping [ my legs are aching as I type, and now I'm attempting to strain my fingers as well as I blog ]
I passed the ' Make-Up store' and got myself ANOTHER lip stick.

Why lipsticks and not other types of cosmetics like blush or eyeshadow you ask?
- Well because I have over 200 eye shadow colour squeezed into 2 palettes, and over 11 different blushes for my wide selection. And they take a longer time to finish.

Why SO many lipsticks you ask?
- I too can't answer that, but it's so pretty and they come in same colour but different shade/texture and etc.
It's like buying 2 different black shirts, both same colour but different patterns and design. So it gives a different look :)

p.s: I'm just plain bonkers, so don't bother.
p.p.s: No I haven't been drinking, I swear I'm sober as hell to think mascara smells like roses.
p.p.p.s: okay, maybe 2 beers, but doesn't change the fact they SMELL like roses!

2009-09-21T22:25:00.003+08:00

I got a new palette!
Felicia got me this 32 lip palette! she got herself one so she knew I wouldn't mind it.
I find it really pretty, at least the colours in it doesn't look dramatic or just ridiculously out of place.
So yay!

Okay, my brain just died on me so I have absolutely nothing to say.

You give me a still face and refuse to say anything
though you're beside me, I feel so lonely
For you, I don't know how long I can hold up
Looking at your back as you walk away from me
I was more upset than you were
Maybe I gave you too much pressure
but I really don't want much
why are things turning cold?
because I finally understand, what people mean when they say feelings change. Mine certainly has

2009-09-13T16:06:00.005+08:00

I was looking through some pictures of last weeks party held by Shane at their place in Steven's road. for the record, I HONESTLY forget my outing with Solin and the girls. Without my Xperia organiser I'm a mess, but then I made it up to you guys when I brought you along with me aye!! ;)
Solin is by far the worst person to hang out with when she's drunk, I'm shit serious because she's just all over guys that she finds hot, and she always pick out the ones who already have girlfriends.
I personally found it funny with the way she acted and was just going crazy hyper over everything! until she took her 9Th jello shot and started grooving to the beat while practically grabbing people all over ,hugging everywhere to the song 'Down' by Jay Sean. HAHAHAHA! she's damn funny, especially when she's wasted.

Oh right, I can't upload those pictures because
a) some people don't really have a good impression of my friends, so to avoid any misunderstanding or whatsoever I'm not going to post anything relating to his appearance.
b) my brother probably thinks they are a bad influence, tattoos and piercings aren't helping really.

So let's just leave this as it is and those babes that want the photos got to get it from me on line alright, or just harass Shane for them.

~
Quick updates! I'm so far behind, so I'm just going to do a quick update on things.
I made a few awesome purchases,wonderful wonderful! :)
I bought a 120 eyeshadow palette, 88 shimmer palette,10 pro blush palette,20 brush set.
The 120 palette looks like this

the 88 Shimmer palette looks like this

the 10 blush palette
[ abit off perfection cause i've been using it! :D ]

and the 20 brush set :)

This apparently drove Kerrie,Solin and Jamie NUTS! after they saw my eye colours on this, they went crazy trying to do the same. and what do they do? they purchase their very own palette.... and what do they do after they have their palettes?! they come straight to me for help. Nice one guys... nice one... =.=

So instead of posting up tutorial videos of myself applying make-up, which is very unglam to have our mouth opened up so wide while applying mascara. I've just posted up pictures of my make-up every time I go out and have something on :)
So... for those who don't have Facebook like Kerrie, i'll post them up here for you so you'll have a rough idea of the colours you wanna mix together.
Same goes for Effa! she's always randomly liking my pictures, haha. She's so cute.
Alrighty now!

I use my 10 pro blush palette for all these and the Loreal collagene mascara [ it's awesome volume for just 2 applications! plus easy to remove! love it! ]
I just cleaned out my dresser, particularly my drawers which contains all my make-up.
I threw out/gave away/ some got stolen by isabella and gang, some [ well most ] of my make-up which I'm not using or some I bought but did not use for god only knows why.
and now my drawer is quite empty! which also means, ' ROOM FOR MORE!'
alright now, when I have the time I will show you my entire dresser which includes, nail polish,lotions,perfumes,rings, accessories and etc.
but for now, my very rare [ yet untidy ] drawers :D

and for the last time, the pink leopard print round box you see on the above picture is my body shimmer... Now stop asking! :)

I threw out most of my lipstick/gloss, which were more than 30 tubes. good lord, 30 tubes of what I have no idea! hahaha
and those are NOT my lotions, those are just random base lotions that I use every now an then cause it has SPF like 45? and no idea what the 2 lighters are there for, I ran out of aroma candles to burn. Should get somemore, wonders of Ikea..

and also and also and also!! maybe it's because I can't get it from Singapore and it looks so cool! My friend's relatives made trip to London or some weird country that week and got me just this particular Eyeshadow shade, its sooo pretty! well it was given to me so.... wee!

you can't really tell from the picture, but its a very nice purple-blue shade. veryyyyy pigmented and glittery. even nicer than the ad when it was in my hands! hahah
it's from H&M or something in London.. probably australia as well. so what do we people from sunny Singapore do? E-BAY! :D

on another very random note, I've finally re-arranged my earring rack and again threw out those that were very old or lame looking. Probably the stupid animal shaped plastic ones I had when I was 12!

Well done Kim! :) now it looks empty, and again I have more space. which means...
MORE NEW EARRINGS!! WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

~
Now moving on... I HAVE A NEW TOY!!
I asked dad if I could have a laptop, and he looked at me with a face with words ' why do you need a laptop when your computer is barely 6 months old ' written across his forehead.
but oh well, he brought me to the mega courts and I cam skipping home with my new ...
SONY VAIO CS PINKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

that also comes with a Pink laptop case and a Pink wire-less mouse!

Awesome or what.... :D

~

My mouth is aching like a bitch, and what's worst is that Jude went to meet Dhanna yesterday and I COULDN'T GO BECAUSE MY FACE WAS AS SWOLLEN AS ONLY GOD KNOWS WHAT!
I look like sponge bob, really.
I wanna meet dhanna again soon! he's the most awesome brother ever! been the same great guy since I knew him at only 9 years old :)
and of course the lovely malar as well.

He is like the best looking Indian I've ever seen la!
wait.. apart from this one...

I can't decide...

now I feel grossed out.

:D

~

oh! quick shout out to Juliana! happy happy happy 21st! you're such a sweet girl, I love you to death! hope you had a great time! Love love!!

2009-09-12T21:40:00.004+08:00

WISDOM

Well okay! so I've been out of action for a pretty long time. what? I was just trying to get myself back up on 'track' so I could smoothly sail through my final exams. I wouldn't want to retake ANY papers at all, no idea how depressing that would be.
So now that I'm on holidays, the first thing that comes into mind [ or at least my mind ] is DRINKING our life away!!
~~ I was wrong, so wrong. The Oral surgeon from Mount E hospital scheduled me for a minor oral surgery to remove two impacted wisdom teeth. Meaning that it is buried under gums and bones making an insertion necessary. How do I know I have this problem? it just hurts when I eat, which is later then proved as the X-ray shows the 2 teeth on my lower jaw growing horizontally giving pressure to my molar which is causing all this pain.
Does it hurt? 1-10?
JESUS CHRIST! hurts like a bitch!
My entire oral cavity was pretty much non functional cause I couldn't open nor move without feeling the pain, my jaw ached so bad and everything was swelling up. I just couldn't sleep.
If I thought tearing my ligament was bad, this is a clear winner. By far the worst experience.
Horrible, very horrible.
Thinking I might lose a couple of pounds with my liquid diet, but my face is swelling 2 times its size and I haven't even tasted a chip.
Which comes to this random part, Chester brought me to this Mexican restaurant up town. THE FOOD WAS AWESOME and we had an awesome alone night :)
The next day the boys went to dan ryan's a little restaurant that served great chicken and sauce and etc, but I didn't have much cause I was feeling a little unwell.
2 days later I've found to have put on 5 pounds, I didn't even eat Taco bell and I put on 5 pounds. Thank you nachos.
So before I carry on to what my friend bitched in awhile time, she saw this guy [ who is the hottest man ever *that was a joke, don't tell mommy cause this is a family approved blog. Well I have expletives, okay this is a PG blog. * ] was in the states and he bought a couple of lotions and lip-gloss from VS and also some H&M eyeshadow! and I but I couldn't stop laughing when said he had to go into a clearly feminine store [ probably with pink fluffs all over or something ] to pick up a particular lipstick shade wanted. he would complain about how every time he goes to the cashier and has to look straight at the blonde lady with a smile, than walk out with a lipstick in his hands giving her the wrong impression of him being a cross dresser [ apparently he is quite pretty ] I couldn't help but to keep laughing, it's hilarious!

Well, I'll update you guys on anything that I've to say after my little ' rest ' time.
until then, I'm going to upload pictures on Facebook now.

Peace out!

2009-07-18T14:06:00.004+08:00

Is this horrid or horrid?!
I got attacked by some shit ass virus that aches my whole body leaving me with throbbing pain to bare.
Every time I sneeze it feels as though my body was being bashed up and every time I cough it's as though someone broke through my rib cage and ripped my lungs out.
I went to the doctors and scored a whopping 38.7 degrees.
And totally earned myself 5 days of mc! 5 days! I know?!
I'm already exhausted from all the typing already, its cramping up my fingers so I'm going to take off and post long overdue pictures some other time.
Until then, Kisses and Bitches.
~
Life gets tougher as one ages doesn't it? everyday we're maturing, and everything we're getting more and more tired from having to handle the surrounding.
But we have to learn to be happy, why so serious? Like how Roshan always says that we live once, be happy, don't stress cause we won't get the same day again.

Cause you've gone stone cold, so have I.
Pack your bags and walk away, I'll take the blame.

p.s: Hi babes! ILY <3

2009-07-05T16:27:00.002+08:00

AUSTRALIA,Perth

My trip there was awesome, and I have a shit load of pictures.
So i'm going to upload them and add captions as we go along alright.

We got a pretty sweet apartment in the suburbs.
My room looks kinda like a single bed orphanage, but it's still cosy :)

Snack on the tables because we hardly slept when we were there, either too cold to sleep, too much to eat, too much to drink, or we were just suffering from insomnia.

That's pretty much the backyard of our apartment, pretty sweet view huh.
Shitass cold but the grass were crumbling, probably in spring everything will start blooming.
Grass might grow pears! :D

What? a girl can't imagine now? Sheeh.

We played golf the next morning!
Really beautiful place, nice weather and good place for a good game of golf and some cam whoring. :)

Pardon my parents, they think they're the first generation of Nelly and Ashanti =.=

Than I met up with Alicia, but her college was just next to Curtin University. [ one of the uni's I'm planning to enroll into ]

I needed to do some shopping!!!!!!!!!! We keep running out of time cause we shake our way through the day but shops all close at 5pm! and sun sets by 5.30pm! so it's quite annoying.

Yup, it goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on........

We went for seafood dinner by the sea!
really nice environment, i miss it already :(

Than I FINALLY get to see my nephew and neices again! yes yes, i'm an aunty of 5. boohoo.

The lovely additon to our family, Caitlin Rose Chander :))
You little cutie, your first line will be ' i love you aunty kim ' okay?
heh heh heh

Than we get the ever so darling, Jarrod Francis Chander and Zachary Anthony Chander.

Jarrod

Zac Zac

When I was at the departmental store called WoolWorths, I came across this section.

Isn't this awesome?! oh god, I wanted to grab all them bottles back. But my lugguage was already exceeding =.=

We visited Chocolate,wine and more wine factories.
So just look at the pictures and fill in your own description.

And then rome around the city for the rest of the days with friends.

And then i'm back in singapore after so many days of fun :(

Which! is so much more convinient but I could feel my face melting instantly upon arrival at the airport.

2009-07-03T15:48:00.003+08:00

OK, i just got back from Australia and i have a shitload of pictures and all to update about my trip.
I've trained myself too well and now can buy 3 pairs of shoes in half and hour. [ I'm amazing, I know ]
A girl can shop in 30 minutes, duh!
Anyways, I'll update it soon cause there is too many and I'm in the whole ' I don't wanna fucking do anything' mode.
so yeah, got to go!

oooo! quick shout out,
Happy Birthday Chester Gabriel Alexander Pascoe.
you're a year older, please be more mature. arse, I love you.

okay BYE!

I don't wanna fight,I'm tired if being sorry. Cause I still love you, but can't want you.
When you find you, come back to me.

2009-06-20T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm going to Western Australiaaaaaaaa..
I bloody need this break.
yay yay! shall update once I return, I know I've died for awhile.

So you're gonna be ignoring me like some immature 23 year old?
cause I can deal with that, doesn't bug me chester.

Bye!

2009-06-09T17:23:00.002+08:00

Don't want no paper gangster.

Don't just walk away pretending everything is ok, while I stand here with tears down my face listening to you as I can't help but blame myself.
So now what do I do? now that I know we're through.
Wish that I could move on, but can't let go it's too strong.
Just like that and then you're gone, is this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say, sent the tears right down my face.
Now i'm trying to escape the misery.
How do we reverse the chemistry, I don't want us to be the end of me.

It's a little late for conversations, there isn't anything that you can do cause my eyes hurt and hands shiver.
I don't want to do this any longer, I've already spoken my heart is broken.

Kiss away the pain, stand by me forever and be my hero.

2009-05-24T13:54:00.002+08:00

I wanna be standing at the beginning with you.

When I finally was able to pick myself after so many setbacks, I was able to achieve things beyond my expectations.
After one of my biggest achievements in 2007, winning GOLD in the youth golf championship, my life changed, standards and personal achievements got higher.
But,with that being my stepping stone, I was able to prove to myself and everyone else that I am actually able to achieve something.
So what if I didn't know alot of other things? I remember my closest friend would constantly remind me on how untalented I was just because I couldn't draw, nor play an instrument.
But the pressure was too much, people weren't helping.
So I pushed myself with the mind set of being nothing less than absolute perfect.
But I maxed out on my limit and I got injured, next thing I knew after I was screaming in massive amount of pain trying to roll it off on the floor yelling up to god to help me.
I had a cracked knee cap and a torn ligament, which felt like the end of the world when I had to learn to bend my knee again for 3 months.
Right when all hopes were down I was offered a great opportunity, one I was sure I had a great future ahead.
Sleepless nights and constant pondering, I was sure I wanted to go and try it out. I was so sure,
but I couldn't take it in the end.
I couldn't have just left like that when I chose nursing and was half way through, I couldn't leave everything here just like that.
And also I wasn't confident in committing so many years to something that might not come in the end with a recovering knee.
on top of that, Randall and Kathleen's passing wasn't helping at all. It just tore me apart inside.

But now I've picked myself up once again, not having achievements in mind.
not setting the bar way higher than I can reach, I'm going with the flow and wherever my standards can take me.

So I'm going to keep trying, until I make it somewhere someday.
Doesn't matter where or what, I have to go my own way.

When I lost hope, you were there to remind me.
I'll be there when the world stops turning,
I'll be there when the storm is through,
at the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you.

2009-05-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

Chuck for army

Just randomness, I went shopping with Chester for cute dog stuff.
I got this awesome dog army print shirt for Chuckie! Just to commemorate Justin De'cruz on his await for enlistment, aka 2 years of suffering.
I just think my dog looks shit ass cute.

I got baby Candy some chew toy ducks [ in pink of course ], she ruined her previous toys terribly. Doesn't she look pretty :))

See, they have individual bedding's.
Clearing colour coded according to gender [ dogs are colour blind anyways, so I'm just pleasing myself. ]
but still awfully cute.

~

Anyways, I've got my body clock screwed up big time. Sleeping at 5am, waking up at 2pm.
Going out again, [ unable to reveal certain information, unless one knows me well they know what my holiday routine is like. ] but I should seriously stop.

So for a post hangover I met LORRAINE MICHAELS,the ever so lovely buddy of mine, she's the sweetest!

She's so sweet right? :)

I went home after the meet up, turn my phone to silent mode, hibernate my computer, turn on the air-condition until it freezes my nose, tuck myself under the comforters, and fall asleep while I inhale the lavender aroma of my burning candle, scenting my whole room as I make my way to dream land and not wake up into this cruel world until 11 hours later.
Than only did I remind myself why I use to sleep for so many hours, and how I should sleep more.

I popped by Chester's place cause that joker asked me to fold hearts with straws and stick them on the present for his little cousin who just turned 8 =.=
Shane does a good job in wrapping by the way, surprising but he does.
He wrapped a couple for me on Christmas last year, which technically reflect on myself very badly cause I'm the girl. so lets drop the subject.

~

So I met up with Diyanna and Sakinah. [ SBY?! ]
Let bygones be bygones, from the moment I've decided to let this be another chance for us was the moment I put everything behind us.
we can't rewrite our history, but we can start on a fresh page. :))

:))

And when I got home, look who I found waiting for me!

It's JUDE!
hahaha, he kept blinking so I made him OPEN his eyes.
Joker ah this feller who doesn't talk much.
~

Hi Chester <3
you're the best, okay bye.

2009-05-10T22:56:00.005+08:00

Tired of being sorry

Happy mothers day!!

So I couldn't get a restaurant up last minute cause it was jam packed with reservations almost island wide! [ with exception of some cha-pa-lang area la ]
Brazilian restaurant full, Fish and Co boring along with Swensens and Jack's place.
Sakae sushi totally boring.
But also most of them are booked out!
So I manage to call this particular place, and YES they have seats!

Sakura that is, simple and affordable.
Perfect for family dinner with the allowance of a soon to be 18 year old who is still wanting a new camera.
Wee!

I got my mum a huge card that had some of my writing on it with a bear like flower wrapping, while Russ got mum some lotions and etc from The Body Shop.
and also a card, simplest most appreciated item of all.

Ohhh well, one week of holidays down. 2 more weeks to go!
More friends, more outings more fun!
weee!!

Bye!

Well,maybe you were right.
maybe I was lonely,I don't wanna fight.
I'm tired of being sorry.

2009-05-09T15:39:00.005+08:00

Have I lost my mind?
or maybe i'm in love.

I could talk you for days you make me laugh one thousand ways
And i realise you fill me up like hot water in my tea cup
I'm enchanted by your smile, I must admit it took awhile for me to see that we have something.
I hope to god we remain the way we feel, because this could be amazing something so super real.
There's something about you I can't help but show it,
I'm telling you know that you got me good.

Shared the laughter, shared the tears.
We both know, we'll go on from here.
Cause together we are strong, in your arms that's where I belong.
I've been blessed by the power of love,
and whenever you smile I can hardly believe that you're mine.
Each time I look in your eyes, I know why.
A feeling in my heart I can't deny.

How you've changed, it's amazing and I totally appreciate the effort you put it.
You use to be stone cold and out of control, now your just the simple warm hearted down to earth boy that everyone will love.
Chester, I really appreciate everything you have done and you make me look forward to a everyday life with you.
You're just that great :))
p.s: Have a great trip to Spain! [ Too bad I couldn't come along, my holidays are too short. Miss you! ]

I tremble when you touch my lips,
how you are so gentle and how I fall for your eyes.
there's nothing I won't do to spend my life with you, I've give my all to you baby.

2009-05-05T01:00:00.005+08:00

Talk about random?!

Okay, because of this bloody swine I have a week's off from work. Which means rest for busy nurses who has no life, which technically means I have nothing to do.
EAT MY WORDS! my lecturer just called and I can't return to work because the hospitals aren't accepting student nurses, we can't go back to school cause the next intake are having lessons per normal.
So they brought the vacation period forward!!!!!
why is that bad you may ask?!

I'm suppose to go to Perth in JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
now I can literally visualize my ticket disappearing in flames.
I'll sulk as I enter school for lessons May 25Th onwards, really ruin my mood.
Bloody swine.

So before my mood got ruined, I randomly called some peeps to hang out.
Like friends I haven't seen or friends that I just wanna hang with.
BUT! it was a real bad timing for Johanna [ p.s : I love you Jo-neh-neh ]
So I got it kind of small, just a few of us to chill out on a random Monday.

What? I'm bored and am having vacation on my own while my friends are all in school?!
and some getting drunk but still!
So I can only hang out with Nurses, which means Sakinah [ ohhhh boy ]
Which also means doing nothing =.=
crap, I suddenly feel so sorry for myself.
Awww man!

So this was how my day went, I met Kenny at 4pm [ suppose to be at 5pm but he ended early and starting harping on the phone for me to be there straight away, hate you ]
His Ipod failed on him, so we got it fixed in Tampines mall.
It didn't fail on him exactly, he set a pin which he forgot. so yeah I know. [ Dumbass ]
After which Johanna and Danielle came to meet me!
I loveee loveee them, miss them too. Johanna looks good :)
And Danielle wanted to kill me cause I pronounce her name as Daniel on purpose, oh so fun.

Danielle goes off, Johanna and I go to Mos burger while Emily and Claudia joins us!

Johanna and Claudia leaves, Emily and myself head behind Starbucks and waited for the arrival of Joanna Goh my favourite Ah lian.

I don't know what she was doing here but I found her effect kinda nice, well it wasn't a effect really. She just moved.
I hope I don't have to visit you in jail one day =.=
Seriously watch your back, seriously! okay love you. haaaa

Okay and then Emily leaves leaving Joanna and myself to wait for Sherwin Ashley Teo :))

We sit about while we wait for my Hommies to come by, and we randomly bump into..
Pauline? Roseline? ahh?
haha! Haven't seen them in ages, for Pauline at least. Oh well, it was nice :))
So we sat and chat for awhile. Caught up abit and took some pictures :))

Pauline and Roseline left,
The rest came, and we went to have dinner.

Stephanie,Ferris and Marcus came by then we caught a drink at coffee bean and hung out

Oh right, somewhere between here we bumped into John and Chyelai!
tsk tsk, all gangsters now la. tattoos all over as if there wasn't enough paper to draw on, and you had to do it on yourself. =.=

Oh right, we tried to get Sherwin to eat Cinnamon. Just the smell got his facial expressions activated, oh well. I'm allergic to Cinnamon, I might just die after eating that while most cough over how its springs around in your mouth in a goo form.

Lovers as usual.

And that was how my day went.... :)
yeah I know! it's just monday!
shucks! I thought it was going to be a week but its my vacation apparently!
and again it's just monday!!

You think I don't know, you're out of control,
I don't need this from you.
I'll give it all up but i'm taking back my love.
I've given you too much.

2009-05-02T12:44:00.003+08:00

WEEKENDS!!!!
and another week of rotting?!
Bloody swine.

Met up with my boys!
I meet them every other week but I'm always happy when it comes to ' meet the boys session. '
So much so we've created a bond so strong that I'm emotionally so attached to each of them that I kept randomly calling out to each of them between the night just to tell them ' you're the best '.

LOL! hey, I'm the only girl and it was a Friday night so I'm forgiven for being ridiculously random.
Kenny was talking to me online just awhile ago and he mention about giving this clique a click to it's name.
Than I told him ' kenny, we hommie's y'all. '
and he INSISTED the name ' The crew! ' [ so year 2005 ] is dope!
I totally disagree! Okay, so my first point is - Why do we even need a name? okay, we're just messing around but I somehow feel this group gets bigger and bigger?! anyways, the name is not important so lets not bother.
my second point - Refer to my first point.

Now, X-MEN - Wolverine is a bloody kick ass nice show!
Went to catch an 11pm movie with em' boyz last night, and I was totally engrossed in the movie that I even lost interest in throwing popcorn at Marcus, into Sherwin's nachos and on Nigel's lap.

I totally found Wolverine hot! character played by Hugh Jackman.
Okay he IS stated in 'people's' magazine one of the sexiest men alive, but I never took a double look at him.
Maybe because I still find Jensen Ackles so much hotter!

Okay, anyways now I think the Wolverine is totally hot and bloody sexy when he kisses.
But then again I wouldn't want to be living with someone like that, I don't want to get stabbed through the heart while I just make a left turn in bed now do I?
So sexy how those knifes come out through his knuckles, woooooo.
I should have some coming out of my toes, so I can kick some irritating people while stabbing them in the foot at the same time.

So before the movie started [ at 11.10pm ] we goofed around while we waited for all to come.
And again, with a girl that constantly has her pink camera around there HAS to be pictures.
[ Jeffrey,Shane don't get offended. You guys have only clubbing pictures and fags between your fingers, my little cousin has a big mouth and I don't want kids to be picking these up. Yes I know, I shouldn't act as if I care but I'm gonna be considerate to prevent any yapping aunties that think I need to go to church to re-new myself from bad habits. No not rehab to renew, church to renew. Like god even bothers to renew me, he'll probably look at me hand me a halo and invite me to join his heavenly choir in 80 years. never the less, I love you both. ]
So yeah! pics are the same old same old, but guys! in years to come we're all gonna look back at these and then you're gonna appreciate my pink camera even more than Sherwin already does.
bwahaha,

I'm not showing you a random picture of some over-sized shoe for this pair of feet but it's MY SHOE! [ and my super sexy waxed legs that I made Sherwin touch to PROVE how smooth it is, that lead to Nigel comparing our sizes. I kill you Nigel, asshole. ]
I wore it with a shirt checkered print dress [ all one piece ] and threw on this over-seized red-pink shoes just so I could flop around in them.

See! Marcus likes it, and Nigel is jealous.
[ Suddenly all so amused by my outfit and my shoe in particular, I wanted to look like a rock star that flopped in red shoes too big for her feet. I would have worn my brother's army boots but I would be in prison after the night's event convicted for murder with those shoes so scary. ]
I do not have toe jam ok! I have absolute pleasant feet aroma.
When placed next to a flower seed, the flower will bloom ah!

Picture time!
* warning, in between random shots you will be able to view Eugene's cam-whore pictures that WILL cause severe trauma to your eyes so bad causing you to see nothing but his face for the next 48 hours,leaving you to scream in pain by yourself. So be prepared, if you have a weak heart and for some reason want to continue with this painful torture but need to scream.
Let me know, I'll hand you a pillow. Enjoy *

- Did anyone survive that? do I have anyone STILL alive to read?
never mind, I'll just carry on. Let me know who passed out.

went to have supper/breakfast at about 3am after the movie,

Then we headed home at around 4am.
=(( miss ya'll already. haha

Thanks guys, as usual I always look forward to the weekends with ya'll. [ we have 2 missing people from this picture, thats what happens when you come late! =)) ]

This isn't how things were suppose to be Chester.
You're about to drive me up the wall with that temper of yours.
I'm tired, mentally and emotionally.
Don't make me leave, don't make me go back on my words when I said i'll be there for you.
It felt like just yesterday when we were head over heels for each other,
now it's just taking all of my energy.

2009-04-24T23:45:00.003+08:00

I can't tell momma you my man!

Ok, here's the thing..
Sarah,Jason,Tasha and Huiling saw Chester and myself at Bishan catching a movie.
[ I know random place, but we both thought it would be funny to catch a movie at some place we'll never go! ]
hahaha, so we went to Bishan J8.
And can you believe we bumped into them!
Shucks boy!

Huiling came up to me and said,
' I knew it Kim! ' then followed by a HUGE grin on her face while her eyes paced from left to right looking at both Chester and myself.
Than Jason came forward with the biggest frown on his face asking,
' How come I never suspected anything whenever I see you guys? I always thought you two were really close friends. hmmm strange '

I stood there giving him a look that read ' why do I bother to talk to you? ' written all over my face.
Chester threw his highly inked arm around my shoulder and waved at everyone so we could carry on with our day plans.

As the day drew to an end, I dragged myself home at the thought of work the next day.
Chester stop his car by the junction of my block, wished me goodnight and I reluctantly open the car door and taking forever to close it.
He came out of the car and said to me,
' Babe, it's going to be a good day at work tomorrow. I just know so. '
How many of you would believe what he says? some 22 year old man with tattoo's all over having no money issue and living life as if he was in heaven, suddenly tells you that things would be ok?!
I know, I thought to myself and said.
' What do you know about tough life? everyday is a GREAT day for you, talk about just ok? '
But oh well, come to think of it..
Why penalise a guy who's just trying to make you feel better?
So anyways, I had my Friday night BURNT!
Once Friday nights are burnt, it follows on by my weekends.
But what do you know!
I met up with Luke and Jonathan [ who was totally giving me an attitude for no rhyme of reason that night ] for some drinks.
Kinda sucky, but oh well. I didn't do no nothing boy, don't treat me that way.

Saturday night!!

I randomly spoke to Marlboro Loi asking him what he was doing cause I miss him and haven't seen him in a LONG TIME, and he responded to me saying ' we just met last week ' along with a lame face.
hahah!
GUESS WHAT! he was going to meet Ian kwok to play pool!
Ian's my form teacher in secondary school, it use to me MR KWOK when we addressed him.
now it's just Kwoky for me, and Ian on certain occasions.
Met with Nigel,Joseph,Eugene,Liangbin,Kenneth,Sherwin and Mervin.
With Marcus at the beginning and the end of the day's event.
* Yes as always, I'm the only girl. What to do? They're my hommies! =)) *

So before I met up with the rest of my hommies,
I bumped into Joanna!
I walked pass her at parkway, and she saw me with a HUGE shock facial expression from a distance.
Shouting ' KIMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ' all the way until she flew into my arms, and gave me constant compliments on how pretty I am now.
Real sweet of her, but really was I THAT much of a geek in school?
Sheesshhh...

Met the rest! and they played pool while I snuck a shot in between making a fool out of myself.
Because I look like an expert when I play a game with Sly and gang, I became over confident when it came to the pros.
really I should dig a hole in the ground and just stick my head into it.

Awwww, kwoky and his girlfriend. =))
I can just imagine their kids being such a genius and constantly doing push-ups to train their biceps.
Since both are teacher's and kwoky's really 'kong'. ahhh, I can just imagine their future child first words.
I bet it's ' Knock it down! '
hahaha, kwoky famous for the annoying push-ups.

I also told kwoky that I'll be going to Australia after I graduate to study for about 3-4 years when he asked me if I was still doing nursing.
And his reply to my further studies was ' aww, that's so sad.... '
Erm, I was actually looking for some encouragement hello?
it's a good thing actually, sucks but a good thing.

You better see me off old man, if not I won't look after you in years to come.
I'm so sure you need a nurse when you're wrinkly!

Already halfway there, hahaha.

yay! meet again meet again!
I mean we always do every other week, but we should hang with kwoky! not all the time la, Once today, I can already feel myself age. hahaha
Old people now a days.

And and, I got a NEW GADGET!
[ me and my gadgets ]
This time it's the gay-est pink china phone that's totally awesome for a spare!

it's ALL pink, touch screen, has TV and is kinda loud.
Best of all, Made in china!
When Eric handed this to me as a 'fun' gift he puts it, he also instructed.
Don't go to near to the phone and speak into it with a distance, it might explode. Made in china.
hahaha!!!!!!!!

But it's pretty la =))
I still LOVE my Xperia though!

Okay peeps, chao.

I keep my hopes up and watch them fall each time.
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it allslowly fade away

2009-04-22T18:24:00.004+08:00

Unwrap the truth.

I felt the pressure, pressure I felt getting worst every time I saw someone that looks no where near being bright do so much better than me.
Stretching out my extended neck to its maximum, reaching for any sign of the surface gasping for as much air possible.
But then it sips through every possible exit in split seconds.
With no time on the second breath, I'm struggling my way fighting for survival.

I can't get rid of the fact I'm ripping out my hair, the pressure was haunting me.
But I knew I had to find a way, a way out that was.
And I did, I found a ticket for an exit to the stress.
But this same ticket gave me an auto entrance to one of the biggest disappointments in Chander's eyes.
I got away with constant parties,drinking and hooligans.
But I took things for granted when it came to this very short thin stick that looked so harmless, but felt so good when inhaled at the other end of a burning flame.
I needed a way out, I needed a solution.
No one could have helped me, no one should if I was going to make it on my own.
Now that the cat is out of the bag, and I'm still alive.
I'm going to do my very best to get my life back on track, because I've screwed things up.
I don't regret any of it, just the part of my studies.
I'm not saying that I was better off with the loafers and hooligans that did nothing else but handle daily routines with policemen, but I think I've learnt alot from my mistakes and have grown as a person from the day I put myself out there forced my eyes wide open and looked at the real world.
A world where people fought literally to make a living, where people struggled on a daily basis to put food on the table.
Be it an office girl or a loan shark, they all did it for one reason.
To survive.
I looked at them and felt sorry for they are trying so hard.
Than I looked at myself and couldn't help but feel more sorry for I was wasting my youth on alcohol,loud music, drunkards and flings.
Why not do something more productive? parties are fun, but they get you no where.
I've been there, done that. Time to move over to the next part of my life, this time I'll be realistic.
Life isn't a fairytale anymore, snap out of it.
Play time's over.

Though I've to go through something so scary, not because of the scolding but the disappointment you witness before your very eyes when you look straight into your father's face and wonder why he isn't scolding you.
Than you tilt over to glance at your mother and she doesn't notice your presence by the doorway.
You bite your lip while you gather as much strength you have to hold back those tears.
But all to crumble when one drop slips down from the corner of your eye.

I promised that I'll try, try my very best to let go. But I need time because I'm trying and it doesn't seem to be working yet.

When your world seem to turn its back on you, and all you're relying on is your very own sibling whom you have shared the deepest darkest with.
But what do you do when you loose trust on that ONE person.
Someone who cannot be replaced with a million trust worthy friends, someone who cannot be replaced til the day you die, someone who cannot be replaced regardless of the situation.
Someone who's your brother, someone that you trust with your life.
What do you do when that trust isn't there anymore?

Is this what I get for being your sister?
If I had a choice and if I knew this was coming, I wouldn't have trusted you so much.
I didn't choose for you to be my brother, God did. And I'm just accepting the life planned out for me, for there's nothing I can do about it.
I just wanna say to that brother of mine some last words regarding you.
[ I might get over this one day and consider deleting this post, but I wanna remember. Remember on how much Charles have been more of a brother than you were in all 17 years.
and also remember on this very incident, how I lost trust of you. How I felt so betrayed and disgusted I don't even wanna talk to you.]
I'm not afraid to say it, not afraid of anything.
I'm your sister, so what? I think you've already forgotten by now.
What I have to say is extremely inappropriate for the young, but I wish to sum up all my feelings into the simplest form to make things easier for everything.
I just wanna say, you're a fucking whore bag.

Okay done!
Take care people, don't take drugs.
Love peace and chicken grease!

2009-04-19T01:35:00.006+08:00

Imma-Diva

Kenny had us gather at his place for a little get together, just a hand-full for a simple dinner outside of his house in the open air while we barbecue some chicken and squid.
How nice to have something like that once in a while, it's so comforting you'll just forget all the stress and tension throughout the week.
I love those friend to friend sessions, and I'm calling all the missing-in-action peeps to ask me out! Love Love <3>

Kenneth,TingLing,Joseph,Puru,Nigel,Sherwin and myself had a long gossip night!
As always it was fun to see their faces again [ I see them every week ], apart from Sakinah I don't get sick of their faces.
Cause I see sakinah everyday,same shift,same team,same cubicle.
* ahh! its you again! boringg..*

- I wanna bring Kenny's dog POLO home, than he can add to my Shih Tzu dog collection since I have two already at home.

The retarded Nigel's getting so fascinated over the magnetic buckle on my camera case. =.=

Kenny's Rabbit, his place is like a Mini-Zoo.

Met Naddie on saturday night!!
Miss herrrrrr much.
than we went to slack around and had a good heart to heart chat. she's the sweetest la =))

Sunday!
Lunch and movie with my bloody annoying cousin who CAN'T STOP BUGGING ME!
made me take her out to watch 17 again, not so bad a show since zac efron is so hot!
Gosh his so cute, how is it even possible for someone to be that good looking?!
damn!

With cousin Tisha Ann, she took my middle now. now you pay me for copyright.

And somewhere between our meal she asked me,

Tisha : " Jie Jie [ sister in mandarin ], Gege [ brother in mandarin ] has a girlfriend is it? '
Kim: ' Why the question? '
Tisha : '*Gives me a damn annoying facial expression *

and says,
Tisha : because Ahma told me so. SO is it true?
Kim: I think so?
Tisha: gets into serious frustration and takes it out of her chicken.

and then follwed by frustrated facial expressions until popcorn put a smile back.
but before popcorn came, i got this.

Than I met up with Chester chesty, my lover boy.
we went to get my LOVE!
Finally my NINTENDO WII!!
bwahhaha, I got a few deals and dicussion before I lay my money on the table.
Prices ranged from $600-$700 base before additional controller,modification and etc.

I got this for a whopping $553!

WOOHOO!! I had a couple of offers, until this guy noticed me looking around at different deals.
He offered to throw in an additional game called ' celebrity sports ', featuring stars like Nelly furtado,Avril lavigne,Fergie and etc!
I was totally excited, I looked at the sales man - smiled and paid.

New addition to my gadgets, woohoo!

It's so fun even my dog loves it!
yay!

I got whole lot of gadgets,high maintenance and shitload of cables.
but still, Wooo!!
=))

And also I got a PINK radio/ipod charger !!!
LOVE ITTTT!!!!
can you believe challenger [ boring place ] sells such pretty stuff!
and if you're a member [ my brother ] you get it cheaper!!

I paid only $130 for this at member price!
And I can't believe those that pay over $300 on something so ugly and works the same.
they should make more pink products. I'll be a regular for sure! haha
It works great and charges your ipod!
i'm always so lazy to plug my ipod into a wire and charge, now I can charge my ipod in glamour!
i'll be charging it everyday from now on, music on the go all the time.
no excuse for having a flat battery!
haha
My new addtion to my Pink collection, another gadget!
wooooo, not that im into high-tech stuff. But sometimes technology is kinda cool =))

Hi Chester, I love you and you make me happy.
kthxbye =))

2009-04-12T17:16:00.003+08:00

HAPPY EASTER!!

Easter lunch with the familyyyyyy, and some white kids =))
some cousin didn't turn up, but I had a nice time bonding with the rest.
Pretty cool lunch with old people, miss them so much.
Canada is so far! but I WILL visit one day! MUST!

Was at a champagne restaurant Pan Pacific Hotel, quite a nice place. Very soothing environment with great food and deserts.
Plus champagne to add the pinch with the lovely food. Great Easter lunch =))

Oh! they have the deserts in very cute settings! and its like grabbing them while you walk around, really cute concept.

Than I saw an Easter bunny hopping around!
so I randomly went up to the guy holding a tray of chocolates next to the rabbit and asked, ' I'm not too old right? I hope there isn't an age limit? '
He gracefully replied ' Oh! not at all! '
So I harassed the bunny!
it's pink! I had to go after it. bwahhaha

Pink bunny on Easter!
10 kids were crying cause I cut their Q and kept the pink bunny for myself!

There was this magician that came to our table to entertain the kids, yes which includes me.
just that this kid drinks and is of larger size.
So we had some entertainment =))
And reluctantly with some annoying white kids, we had no choice =.=
but I can't stand them.
what? you adore ALLLLLLLLL kids?!?!
bullshit if you said yes.

I'm completely bias when it comes to my nephew and niece, Dylan and Heather =))

I bump into Nicholas De'silva, haven't seen him in ages!
he was having lunch somewhere there too, and randomly passed me a comment.
' you look so asian kim, especially beside your uncles and cousins '.

i'm like HELLO?! I AM freaking asain =.= dumbfuck.

Rub the belly 3 times and make a wish, haaa haa haaaa.
I love you very very very much Justin Boutros. very mucchhhhhhhhh, you're the best Godpa.

Doesn't he look like the Kentucky man? hahaha
Old joke but forever funny. muahahaha

hey hey!
we look spastic but we're so cool. hahaha

okay, washing bums tomorrow, I'm so annoyed.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Ahh, my dawgsss..

kthxbye!

* I won't leave you on your own, but I can't be with you. I don't like you that way, I'm sorry but I don't wanna be the one who lies. I'm not good at that. *

2009-04-12T02:46:00.005+08:00

RUNNING OUT OF TIME!!!!

Amazing how 3 weeks can go by so quickly, felt like just yesterday my holidays started.
But I made almost complete full use of this 3 weeks.. going out late, coming home half drunk.
Cutting off the ciggs was my deal with Sakinah, but somehow I had the sudden uncontrollable rush to attend the ever so awesome pool party at Shane's mansion, and everyone was there!
* Including the gorgeous Edward Rodrigues was there! now, can you blame me for getting so excited?! *
Jeffery came back from the U.S for awhile to settle some bill issues, at the same time catch up with us so he extended a couple more days. Haven't seen that fucker in months, I was dying already.
it's been sometime since I've socialized with the crowd, though I hate crowds but when it comes to parties with drinks and smokes, who would complain?
Going mad for that night made me very guilty cause it felt like I wasn't helping myself change in any way, but that ONE night was a blast!
I felt so complete after that, and a puff never felt so good.
But then again, I'm planning to stop all these and I already took my first step on things.
So why back down? It will only get better, well in the long run.
I'm just making excuses for my mistakes, so just ignore me.
But I'm sure it'll all come to an end sooner or later =))
* Pictures can't be uploaded due to the recent uninvited visitors to my blog ranging from ages below 8, yes ages below 8 was what I said. Not that I don't wanna corrupt your minds, its just that you kids have extremely large mouths and start telling your mummy's how horrible I am going for such events. Nothing is wrong with it, just that anything other than the library is wrong for you kids. So to prevent any misunderstandings, pictures aren't placed up. If your DYING to see them, do let me know. I will show them to you on separate occasions with complimentary narrations as well. Thank you very much. *

Spending time with my friends and catching up on things!
Miss them muchhhhhhh, can't do without them.
Cause you see, I'm a pain in the arse. So friends are hard to come by due to my severe sarcasm and annoyance I drive people crazy.
Not that people don't wanna be my friend, but half of them land themselves in the mental institute.

And I've also been spending time in church, HOLY WEEK!
Good Friday's over, so Isabella that monkey thinks she's an angel can stop the No-meat fasting for that one month and stuff her face with a bucket of Kentucky fried chicken.
And also I have to add, despite her doing all these fasting and etc commemorates of being ' holy', I think I have a brighter HALO on my head than you do!
I've confirmed my placement in heaven while doing so many good deeds, PLUS Jesus issued me a V.I.P pass.
It offers privileges to using severe vulgarities.
And on BONUS days, I'm allowed to use vulgarities while inflicting pain onto another son of a bitch.
How's that deal with god sound? pretty fair I must say.
STILL, I'm going to heaven. BEAT THAT!
Muaahahahahahaha

Anyways,
was great to see cousin Charles again when I headed over to OLPS church,he was serving mass and I haven't had the time to check up on him since.
Love you so much Charles Christopher Chromatius Chander <3>

Met up with My boyssssss,
well 4 of them only actually.
Just chilled out, had some chit chats.

Love them to bits!
and then we'll have to try squeeze time to meet again cause I'm gonna go back to my no life kinda life.
wash bums, home-sleep, wash bums, home-sleep, wash bums, home-sleep.

And the thought of me having to report for attachment early tomorrow morning is freaking me out!
please god, I don't wanna have to go back and stress out for skills again.
I want a life again! where's the youth man?!
we only live once! oh well, but I guess the youth is the part where one needs to sacrifice in order to have a promising future.
Sucks, but its life.

So apart from fags,drinks,chill outs and emo-ing on how fast it's gonna be the 1 year anniversary of my late grandmother.
Felt like just yesterday I was in her arms while she told me that life is stressful, but we have to push ourselves.
Doesn't matter what the outcome was, as long as we did out very best.
And the line I'll always remember her telling me, as she looked into my eyes and said
" Girl, when I count my blessings I always count you twice ".
I miss you mama, Love you so much. I'll do anything to hear your voice again, just one more time. Cause I wasn't prepared.
Not to mention a one year anniversary, sometimes I still wake up wondering if you're really gone.
Everything happened so fast, and it's already been a year. I haven't even gotten over it, but then again. Time will heal all.
Love you so very much.

anyways, in between spare time.
I've been sucking up every bit of patience I had somewhere in me * alot I must say*
to train my canines/dawgs/furballs/ Chuckie - male 4 year old Shih tzu & Candy - female 6 month old Shih tzu dogs some tricks!
and see what I've accomplished =))

* proud proud *

hahahaha, I give lessons and charge at a very low rate.
anyone?

Only dogs thank you, don't ask me to train your gold fish to jump out of the tank, flip in the air, do multiple back flips and dive back into the water ah.
Thank you.

Easter Sunday lunch tomorrow with my FAMILY!
Most of them are down from Canada/Dubai/Russia whatever!
I can't wait. Miss them!

-If only things didn't turn out this way, our whole family could come together as one.
If I had one wish, I wished we all didn't have to grow up. Everything would have been how it was, we would all be innocent and ignorant to the surrounding. And nothing would have changed. So much for a family. -

If only, If only time would stop at that very part. And stay that way forever, we wouldn't be in the state today. Where everything's broken emotionally, everything.

-How I yearn for all to come together, how I pray for you to come back. Because at least you were the reason we came together. Now that you're gone, we're broken. Literally broken. -

Silently crying inside, screaming in pain on how she watches her family crumble right before her very eyes and can do nothing but watch it go down.

2009-04-05T22:51:00.007+08:00

Shit load of pictures,

bloody long entry.
Love Love <3

BATAM TRIP!

Thinking about a GREAT way to relax?!
Holiday? spa? all day sun tan with hot male rubbing oil on your back??

Guaa guaaa guaaaa....

Think again.

Habitat for Humanities organised a 2 day 1 night event to batam in order to help contribute in building houses for the less fortunate.

But!! I must also say they did a pretty sweet job with our lodging, absolutely nice resort.
yeah, I know it doesn't count cause we had a hotel to sleep in.
who cares?! we freaking dug holes in the hard soil for hours in the blazing sun, and even Celestine had a tan!
Exactly! Geeeeezz...

So we gathered at Harbour Front, and than made our way there!
but of course, my pictures shall explain the process of my travelling there.

Than we headed to the ferry! weee

When we checked into our hotels, honestly I was expecting something very crappy.
But OMG! was I surprised!
It was absolutely wonderful!
I LOVED IT! very nice place.

They welcomed us with weird coloured drinks,

Tasted quite good also. haha

Than we checked out our rooms! before going into spasm upon the sight of comfy beds, I went into shock when I saw the view from out balcony!

WOW!
and yes, Sheril's my Rommie. haha

Than we venture out on our rooms for abit =))

After a bit of goofing around, we had to go to the work site.
Dreadddssss..

To the village!
so yes, I shall not elaborate on how extremely exhausting it is to freaking dig a bloody hole.
for SEWAGE SOMEMORE!!!
extreme human torture.
See! Singaporean workers are so fortunate to have large machine diggers that just have to do ONE DIG to get a hole size bigger than what 15 people do for hours with a spade and etc.
pfft. so frustrating.

After approximately 3 to 4 hours of digging holes and bending of metal bars in blazing hot sun having myself practically half cooked and tasty cause I'm edible now.
Sudden crowd of grey heavily soaked clouds appeared in the sky at a direction facing us hole diggers.
We could see rain coming, so we grab our bags, covered the materials that we couldn't afford to get soaked and headed for shelter.
Near by villager who had her new home done up by previous volunteers from Habitat, offered us to enter her house for an early lunch break and a slight wash up.
Water from her toilet were from a draining tube which linked to a bucket outside her house where rain water was collected.
Everything there has no 'automatic' way of doing things, simplest to rinsing of feet were used by scoops and pails for splashes to remove dirt off.

Apparently her family was fortunate to have enough money for her house walls to be plastered, meaning having a layer of concrete over the bricks making the whole house more stable and grey.
[ which is what most houses look like without all the extra wall deco and nice wall colours, aka my pink room. ]

And as spoilt as we sound right now, out lunch was cathered by Harris Hotel itself.
just so no one got tummy aches from some unclean veggie.
useless bums.

than abit of camwhoring before we go back to digging holes.

Than we went back to work..
Digging, digging and more digging.

Than to bending of metal bars.
Bend,Bend,Bending,Bend.

Exhausting know!!

Awwwwww. Cel's so nice =))

we wrapped up on that exhausting day..

Also said Goodbye to the Isabella look alike dog over there named after her.

and then DREAMT about the air-con room for the whole 45 minutes journey back to the resort.
Waiting for the cooooool shower and nice smelling self.

Yea, I know i'm gross but i'm just trying to show you how happy I was to be standing on the balcony just so I wasn't near the work-side. I was happy =))

Sighhhhh.... how relaxing..

Fresh fresh!

Than we changed for dinner and than some venturing around the resort to find some interesting things to do after a long tiring day at work =))

Dinner time! all hungry and tired.

I as usual harrassing the poor waiter during dinner time to take pictures. haahha!

After dinner, during free time...
We found something more interesting to do at the bar by the hotel lobby.
SHISHA! yeah I know! amazing S$8 bucks for a 3 hour go. haaaa

Than I saw a Menu..

she saw a menu..

She too saw a menu!

so a great idea came with the menu...
dessert! =))
and AMAZING! it came SOOOO NICE!!
oh gossh!

Bwahahahahahahaha.

So we kept going on, over excessive shisha plus exhaustion.. = Goofy

End of the day... resulting to this!
haaa haaaaa...

Don't I look like ' Cousin It ' ??

very much alike =))

The very tired us prepared for bed.

The next day!

BACK TO WORK AGAIN!!
sheeesh, we really dreaded this part..

It was a good trip, great experience.
And my full effort wouldn't have been put out there if there wasn't the presence of the super Hot local Indo - volunter/in charge whatever, his cute. Daniel!
ahhhhh!!!!!

See how Sheril's so jealous!
his mine!!!
i'll bite you sheril, I will!

eh, besides the guy in red.. erm..
only to the guy with the same T colour as me.
Sighhhhhhhh....
and I happy or what! hahaha

It was a good experience, and I enjoyed myself =))
and of course especially enjoyed looking at Daniel thinking his so funny when I don't really understand his accent in malay and english.
still, so hot. I think we get along.
Ha-Ha

LOVE LOVE!

~

After a good day's rest, met up with my LOVES!!!
Finally we have time =))
Luqman and nadiah. ahh! love you both to the coreee..
we had dinner and than goof around =))

It was great seeing you guys again! please make more time! oh gosh, we're all so busy.
Love youuuuu so the maximum! =)) love love <3

The next day was the awesome nintendo WII session!
[ yes, I still haven't gotten a WII set for myself, i'm annoyed ]

Yeah, so I lost, I don't wanna play already.
left Jul's place at abt 1.30am. so fun!
again again k juls!
love you.
haa!

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Than the NEXT DAY,
[ macam busy only, tired know! ]
hahaha,

met my GIRLFRIENDS!!
omg omg, finally Francesca has some FREAKING time!
she brought us INTO NAFA, and a tour in her classroom.
hhaha, omg.. we were traspasssing, that idiot.

Rebecca,Teresa,Francesca and I had lunch together!
so close yet no time, how sad life can get.
haha!

Than we headed to Fran's boyfriends jamming studio to just goof around =))
as usual, bwahahaha.

Today was great fun girls, we should have more of this =))
love ya'll!!

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Momma called, asked me to pop by her office.
haaa, some police station only I'm going to.
so yeah, just messed around with my mum's stuff and annoy her just so we can go home early and that she could stop work.
whole day with criminals, tak penat eh?
love love momma.
bwahaha.

and the office space given to her is madness!
one main room for her, and than her desk itself.
apart from the desk which only has mess on it, the main room has a billiard table, tv,sofa etc etc.
how can someone go to work and feel like a chalet?!?!
tskkkk.

ok, i'm tired.
thats all.
kthxbye.
love love.

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It's ok to feel like no one loves you, as long as you love yourself and is confident about yourself.
You can pull of anything.

Whenever you feel that life is revolving around a problem, look out and away to see a clearer view on things.
Than only will you realise it wasn't that bad after all.

party that day was freaking awesome!
I felt so damn good!
the people the alcohol, the fags and everything!
but now that I had to face sakinah on what I did, i feel guilty.
I shouldn't be doing this, i have to give it up for the better.
but honestly it was the best feeling at Shane's party, the pool, the drinks and EVERYTHING was perfect!
but then again, all this is causing damage and I will suffer in the long run.
Trying, trying!
oh oh, my blog song was the hottest song at the party the DJ was playing all night.
no harm loving a song right?! hahaha